Last Wednesday evening I presented a Forgiveness Workshop- While I’ve been giving these workshops for a year and while I always have a profound experience, Wednesday evening was special. We met at the Center for Spiritual Growth, downtown South Bend. http://www.centerforspiritualgrowth.net
The room was full-only 2 open seats. WE, breathed, we sang, we did ho’oponopono and we purged. A tool I’ve used myself was introduced to me by a voice student of mine, Sheiva who is taking care of her husband of 40 years. At the best of times was physically and emotional abusive to her and her 2 kids all of their marriage then had a massive stroke. Knowing he is a different man now and completely helpless, she had a hard time letting go the past abuse and all of the pain it brought with it. She told me that while asking for help to release this past pain she heard “write it all down.” What did she have to lose?
She wrote pages and pages of everything he had ever done to her and finally, when she had finished said “THERE!….but I don’t feel any better.” Then she heard “Now tear it all up into a million pieces.” She ripped and shredded and tore with a vengeance. There! Tiny pieces of “sh%&” all over the floor and said, “I still don’t feel any better!” Then she heard “burn it all!” Of course she followed directions and when there was nothing but ashes she said. “I STILL don’t feel any better!” Lastly she heard these words: “If you can put the pieces back together again you can keep your pain. If not it’s MINE now.” And with that a wave of peace and upliftment filled her body, mind and soul and it was gone!
Now as I said, I have used this for my own personal work a couple of times but Wednesday evening was the first time I introduced it to a group. I relayed the above story. We wrote for 15 minutes then tore it all up. I collected the pieces of pain in a singing bowl and promised that I would finish the process before I went to bed. It is THIS burning of the paper that I want to share.
I understand the the quartz crystal singing bowls are heat impervious. I put it to the test. While I set the content a blaze I thought that even if the bowl does break it would significant of the major “BREAK THROUGH that we all experienced that night. It did not break. The flames were standing 6-8 inches above the top of the bowl. The fire was intense. As I watched it burn I noticed I was crying. Out loud I said “ALL THE PAIN. ALL THE TERROR. ALL THE FEAR. ALL THE ABUSE. ALL THE ANGUISH. ALL THE……” The list went on and on. I started seeing glimpses of peoples past-a death, a cigarette burn on the skin of a child, a fist fight leading to a shooting, a screaming divorce… More tears flowed. Finally…
The fire was burned out. Smoke rose above the trees and drifted into the sky and I said again, but with a different feeling, different voice, almost in a sigh of relief! “all the pain… all the terror… all the fear… all the abuse… It was gone! All of that energy up in smoke, given to God. None of us have to keep it any more! WOW! What an epiphany! What a tool! What a way to SHIFT into the new year!